Most people like to reflect on their previous year during New Years, but I prefer to do it around my birthday. Change is such a personalized idea and it makes more sense to reflect on who you are, who you've been and where you're going on a day where you're already socially allowed to be more self focused. This year, I wanted to make a list of 12 things I've accomplished this year and 11 things I'm trusting God for going forward:
Accomplishments/Things I've Learned:
- I graduated college in December with a degree in Fashion Merchandising and a minor in Integrated Marketing Communication and Design from St. Catherine's University. It was both a relief because I never have to go back to school if I don't want to, but also a really weird transition because I only ever remember being in school my whole life. I finished with a grade point average that I was super proud of and valuable experiences that I was able to take with me going forward.
- I learned that I can not fill every moment of my day. I am not superhuman and I will eventually get burned out.
- I got to see Alaska with my family last June and see another area of California in October.
- I found out that I actually love tea if it is prepared a certain way. I've always been a die hard coffee drinker, but this year I got into chai lattes and the Sencha Blueberry Vanilla Shake with tapioca pearls (Try it! It is SO GOOD).
- I started an internship with The Volk Magazine in April and I've loved every minute of it. I've made great friends on the team, learned so much as a stylist and marketer, and I've been a part of a group that cultivates inclusion and diversity in the Twin Cities.
- I learned that it is okay to choose myself over others in certain situations. I used to think that I had to keep every friendship that came my way, so when I grew apart from someone or we just weren't clicking, I would automatically blame myself. Now I'm realizing that certain friends are only brought in for a short period of time and after that it is good to let go or if a friendship is unhealthy, sometimes you need to just let it die out. Know your worth and choose yourself sometimes.
- I've gotten more serious about blogging and my numbers reflect that. I went to my first fashion week this past fall, joined the Minneapolis Blogger Union in January and have done countless collaborations over the past six months. My standards for photography have grown and my following has doubled in less than 6 months time, which is exciting to say the least!
- I started my first "big girl job" almost two months ago. There have been many ups and downs and unexpected situations, but I rode the waves and I'm growing more comfortable in my position and schedule.
- I learned that I have a minor addiction to Weezer's cover of Africa and by minor addiction I mean I listen to it at least 3 times a day while I get ready in the morning.
- Other women are not competition. I don't need to outdo other women to be a success. Other women are my teammates and my support system. I can learn from them and grow with them. Being in a group of other bloggers this year has opened my eyes to the fact that I can celebrate another person's success while also being content with where I am at in my journey.
- In the same way, I've discovered that I have a lot of sensitivities and make many assumptions about men and their intentions. God is rewiring this mindset and my broken view of always trying to be better than men.
- If I pursue God with everything I am - and I mean EVERYTHING I AM - then everything will fall into place. No need to worry or question.
What I'm Trusting God For:
- God has put a love of travel in me and I am excited to see where He decides to take me this year whether its close to home or far far away.
- That I would foster new, lifelong friendships that push me and grow me in unexpected ways.
- I would continue growing the blog and my networking circle and that He would provide big opportunities for the future in regards to collaborations.
- That I'll get a better car this year. Blue Ivy gets me from A to B, but she squeaks and rattles the whole way there!
- That God will heal the broken areas in my life. God has drawn those issues and lies out into the light and now comes the hard part where we work through those things. The good news is that the outcome will be worth it and that God is faithful to do His part in it, even if I grow weary.
- I have many friends with sickness' right now (my biggest portion of prayers is usually spent on prayers of healing), I trust that God will give my friends and family members answers and healing or will make their burdens light as they go through tough physical sicknesses.
- Jazz (my labrador retriever) is very old and sick. I trust that God will give us wonderful memories in this final stage of life and I trust that God will let him pass peacefully when the time comes.
- That I would get better about making time for my friends who are moms. I had a friend recently who admitted to me that being a stay at home mom can get very lonely and that sometimes she felt strapped to her house. I get so wrapped up in my life as a single person (and admittedly, single friends are easier to plan things with because they can be more spontaneous), but my friendships with my friends who are moms are so important to me and I need to start giving some of my time to them.
- That God will continue to allow me to do praise and worship once a month at church. I look forward to it every month and I feel that music is my deepest connection to God. But I will also trust that, as I pursue God more, He will provide other avenues for connection with Him.
- I would become a better listener and not be so quick to speak. That I would allow my friends to vent without immediately feeling like I need to give them my opinion.
- Even though friends are getting married and starting families, I do not need to fear this new stage of life for them or for what it means in regards to our friendships. Change is difficult, but true friendships will outlast the weird phases.
I hope that you will take some time today to reflect on your past year and see where you've grown and where you still have some growing to do, I think we can all benefit from that. THANK YOU SO MUCH for being loyal readers and for following along as I go through multiple life stages. I'm excited for my 23rd year of life and all of the wonderful things I will be able to share with you along the way.